I feel bad

Whenever I eat sweets, I feel bad. I feel like a miserable failure and like I have no purpose in life, I might as well just die. And yet, I eat things I'm not "supposed" to eat almost every day. I never learn! I just cling on to how I "enjoy" these foods because I'm somehow supposed to, like I know that I enjoy them even though I don't feel it. I try to keep in mind that it's a lifestyle, not a diet, and today is my birthday and it's okay to have ice cream. I just feel like it's hard not to think in black and white, to know when to allow myself to have something and not to obsess over my eating. Sometimes I'm happy and sometimes I feel like a potato.

Im still here

wednesdays workout was really hard!
I could hardly walk on the friday, so i skipped that workout.
Went powerwalking yesterday for an hour/hour and a half.
today is monday and back to the gym :)

Heading to the gym soon

Training and food today

Todays food (I didn't measure and I might have left something out):

Breakfast at 06:30:
Oatmeal porridge with low-fat milk, half an apple and 1/3 banana.
Snack at 10:15:
Portion packet of Dar Vida crackers
Lunch at 13:30:
50g (uncooked) bean noodles and 1/2 tin kidney beans
Dinner at 17:30:
Oatmeal porridge, quark, 1/2 apple and 1/2 banana
Post workout:
Protein shake mixed with low fat milk

Todays Workout:
1 hour spin class, like 45 minutes intense cycling with intervals.
1 hour body pump, overall strength training with barbells.

Today was a good day.

Progress pictures

Long time, no blogging... mainly because my laptop got stolen and I lost all my pictures, along with my motivation. But to compensate, here are some progress photos! :D

Sorry for poor quality, taken in a bathroom mirror with my phone. 

Still, if I may say so myself, I'm bringing sexy back ;)