My ED is my best friend

I'm just so sick of being alone in this. 

I have the same sort of connection to losing weight as normal people might have to a close friend. It's the only thing I think about and what I fall back on when going gets tough. 

I want to completely designate myself to my ED. I want to embrace every little trace of it and I want it to complete me. I'm in love with the idea of a better me. 

There's nothing really standing in my way other than my own anxiety and doubt. 

I just have to trust her. Hold onto her and believe in her power to make everything better, because she can make me better. 

I never wanted to be one of those people who spoke of my eating disorder as a person...